"I've been down in here before and maybe I could want it more I know I never tried to stop I never try"

It wasn't there.

It's always there.

Always.

So where was it?

Where were you?

Hm?

You abandoned me in the moment

That I need you most

No matter how hard I tried

You simply weren't there.

But the worst part is

I didn't even notice your absence at first.

But I did.

And now I'm concerned. 

I shouldn't have gone to you in the

First place

And this time, you didn't come

Whisper,

Scream,

What's the difference?

What does it mean when you stop feeling it?

I miss posting every day. So I plan to attempt to do so. I refuse to elaborate on this. And you would never, ever, guess what it is about. I promise. It's not obvious, not in any way. I don't even think Paige could figure this one out. Anyway, I should go do something productive.