#11

I promised myself I would never leave the truth unsaid again. And look what I did. Big surprise. There was so much to say. There always is. God, I knew you were hurting, and I didn't say what I should have. Not once. I've been doing that so much lately. I've nearly lost a lot of people by keeping things to myself, I've also let people in when I shouldn't have. I went about these situations all wrong. In the end we were all hurt. But out of all the shit that happened today, one good thing happened. Well one good change, I should say (good things did happen). I called you. This time I"ll speak up and say the things that should be said. I lost two people in my life in the past six months, and somehow got them back. And one other lost my trust, but hopefully that will change soon too. I'm so lucky it's phenomenal. The people in my life are amazing....and insane. Dear god, why do you guys put with me? Anyway I'm hopeful now, I'm letting go of some people, but I've also gained people. I'm going to hold on this time, and try to speak my mind more. I'm sorry.

Welcome back, hope. I missed you, it's been too long. Welcome back, myself. It's been too long. I'm done. And I'm back. I did it again. And my close friends still didn't hold against me. What the hell guys?

Anyway. I love you. Whoever's reading this, and to all the people who haven't read this.

Here goes nothin.
Tomorrow's a different day.
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