#21

So I came to the realistic nonrealization of a lot of things today. For once in my life., I don't care. For once, this melodramatic, over-emotional, teenage girl was emotionless. Not cut-off from emotion. Simply done letting certain thoughts and feelings over-ride her mine. I'm not sure if this will last, or for how long. Or perhaps, I've got it all wrong. Maybe it's just shock. But I don;'t believe so. This will take some getting used to, but I'm okay with that. I'm more than okay with that. For the first time in a long time, I'm going to be something else entirely. And I'm happy. I'm empty too, though. All of the extremities I've felt as of late are gone. Now I have to refill it with my creativity, my life, and my thoughts and memories. But right now I'm going to get something to drink cause I'm parched :] haha, and go watch Degrassi. Maybe even do this fucking homework...doubt it.