Keep Holding On

I really can't get you out of my head. I'd thought about it before, but that comment awhile ago..I can't shake it. "I gained a pound yesterday just from that slice of pizza." I don't think anyone noticed, but I did. And I knew there was more behind it. I can see the lie behind your eyes. I know what you're doing, even if it is unintentional sometimes. I didn't say anything. What could I say? I don't know. And yo wouldn't listen to me, I've seen you. You get defensive, putting yo on the defensive wouldn't help. I try to comment on you regularly. You deserve comments. Everyone does. I'm worried. I know what it's like to sit and say to yourself, don't do it, don't eat, just skip this meal. I know what it's like to feel disgusting after eating food. To look at yourself and hate the image in the mirror. I know what it's like to have to force yourself to stay away from food, or only eat this, or just skip dinner tonight, or skip desert, or only eat one chocolate. It's okay to skip a meal, it's okay to feel icky sometimes. But it's not okay to take it to an extreme, or even almost an extreme. It's not okay to obsess over it. To despise yourself. It's not okay to measure your meals, to skip eating all the time. I know it's hard, trust me I actually do. It's harder than most people realize. But you have to fight, because you're beautiful, and you need to stay healthy. And if you want to feel better about yourself, that isn't going to help. It's only going to make you feel worse and worse. If you continue, you'll deteriorate. Obsessing only adds to the lack of self-esteem. If you eat healthy and act healthy you can feel healthy. I know it's hard to change your mind-set, but you can do it. Little by little. I know you can, you're strong enough, and you aren't alone. I'll be here, trying to help from the sidelines. I should probably tell you this, but I don't know how. Is it my place? I'll keep commenting, keep making sure you eat something, keep talking, but perhaps if I gain the courage I'll fully confront you. But it will be in a way that won't send you running either.

I hate society for doing this to us. It's wrong. Let's show them how wrong it is. Girls, you are beautiful. You take someone's breathe away. You impact people when you walk by. You're influential. Important. You're significant. You're gorgeous. Intelligent. Confident. Unique. All of the above. Don't let them tear you down. This time, prove them wrong.