Shouting Through Silence

I'm not this crazy, talkative, loud, extroverted person. Not really, I can be loud, obnoxious, and talk 90 words per second. If you know me, then you know that. But sometimes, or most of the time, it exhausts me. I'm drained, and I can't come up with some response, I need breaks from people, from talking, interacting. It doesn't always mean I wanna be left alone, it's just me, being incapable of some things. I get impatient, sometimes I'm rude, other times I say something and sound like an idiot. And I promise I'm not trying to be rude, or stand-offish, or upset, or anything. Sometimes, I just don't have the energy to be any more than a quiet, terrified, anxious, teenage girl. I still want to talk to people, to be involved, to be a part of a group. So actually talk to me, drag me in, make plans, tell me to come on, or do something to pull me in, because I can't always do it myself. If I wanna be left alone, I'll usually tell people, not talking doesn't mean I don't wanna be around you, or I don't wanna talk, or do something. I usually do. Sorry for all that shitty grammar and broken english. I just felt the need to put something on here, but I can't think straight right now, not at all, so I decided to get that little thought out of my head.