#3

So, I'm too tired to sound intellectual or poetic, so umm a random number 19, kay, 19 facts about myself you may or may not not know. 
1. It takes a lot to get me fully and truly angry. You don't want to see that.
2. I'm emotional and overdramatic. I cry all the time. I'm extreme, but I'm also ridiculously over empathetic sometimes. I hate seeing violence, and I often put mysef in the place of other's so much that it hurts. I care...a lot. People have asked me why? I don't know. I love and care too much sometimes. But I do anyway. And always will. If I talk to you, I care about you. It's just how I am. It gets really extreme though. But I take/keep it positive.
3. I have anxiety, not paralyzing freak out anxiety, just overthinking, paranoia(in a very mild sense), mild panic attacks on occasion type anxiety.
4. Lately, I've been having nightmares about once a week...atleast. They aren't all really scary, just creepy, or upsetting.
5. I've only recently begun to accept that I can't save everyone. That doesn't mean I won't stop trying to do everything I can for everyone I can.
6. I'm pretty liberal, and they are a few areas that I feel extremely passionate about. If I believe in something fully, I will fight for it. I'm open-minded, but I can be really stubborn if I need to be. In many aspects of..everything I swing back and forth between two opposites, it depends on a lot of other aspects. I can be one thing today and another tomorrow, and then I'll be right in the middle. It gets really obnoxious and ridiculous. That was definitely two in one.
7. I'm a total bookworm.
8. My family belongs on Dr. Phil, except we could make him quit. Seriously, the majority of one side of my family is just beyond fucked up. Not all of them of course.
9. My memory can be really patchy sometimes, it bothers me.
10. I wish I was good at something.
11. I'm more introverted than extroverted. I do love people and social shit, but it exhausts me. Interaction drains me. But then, sometimes I need it. There are moments where I feel like I may lose it if I'm by myself any longer.
12. Being in crowds terrifies me, seriously, it took a huge part of freshman year for me to get used to being around that many people, just in the classes and hallways. I'm often able to distract myself so it doesn't make me anxious though. Concerts are one of the few places I'm almost never freaked out. I stay to the side and I can breathe, I'd assume it's the music.
13. All of the people in my life mean more to me than they can imagine.
14. I feel more alone than ever sometimes.
15. Change terrifies me, it's takes me awhile to get used to little things.
16. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I'm ready to learn from them. Not everything is done right the first time.
17. I'm trying to live in the moment, it's really difficult.
18. I'm a romantic, not just in like the love way, but in the idealistic, soulful, dreamy, way. If that makes sense.
19. I'm afraid spiders, deep, unclear water, hospital-related things, the dark, crowds, change, knives, and a bunch of other random things, but mostly of turning into my mother.

Okayy, you probably just learned more about me than you needed to know. That actually got kinda personal, kinda like this entire blog. Haha. Oh man. Seriously, I often think there are too many aspects of myself. Seriously, this doesn't cover 1/4th of it. And a lot of that was kind of negative. Hmm. I'm not all bad and negative I promise!! Haha. But seriously, I need sleep. Bad.
Good night.
Sweet dreams, my darling.