Why dance with the devil when you have me?

You're fighting so hard, but you're fighting for the wrong thing. You are fighting to hide, to run away from everyone else. Everyone who cares. Everyone who tried. You can't grasp that. Can't fathom how anyone could care. You feel so broken inside. Feeling the blackness rip apart your soul. So you shut them out. Push them away, so you'll never feel pain. But without pain, you're only numb. A human can only stay sane for so long that way. You hate being this way, but you hate the other way too. You don't want to care. You can't bare to feel. It's too much for you to handle. If only you could realize that you aren't alone. You don't have to shoulder the pain on your own. That's why they are here. They're trying so hard, it's tearing them apart. Everyone's hurting inside, but no one can change your mind. Only you can save yourself, but you don't have to do it alone. They won't let you be alone. Even if some don't understand it, they can still accept it. I'm sorry there wasn't more I could do. I wish I could it all for you. But no matter what, I'll always be here to break the fall. I love each of you.


This post came out of some frustration and hurt i'm dealing with while trying to help some people i care about. It's about several people, and they're killing me. I care so much, but I can do so little. I'm sort of lost at the moment. I hope tomorrow holds something better for them.