Longing and Sorrow

Have you ever longed for someone with your entire being? Missed them in every way possible? Missed talking to, laughing with, yelling at, or just being with that one person? Wanted things back the way they were? Wanted that person to stop you from walking away? Wanted them to come back into your life more than anything else? Missed what you had and what you were? Missed all the simple things? Have you ever felt like part of you has been ripped out? Did you ever have someone that you mad your whole life? Then have them walk away? Or let you completely walk out of their life? It hurts. A lot. I don't think you can completely get over that pain. Everyone has friends who walk into their lives that leave more than footprints. These people are something significant. These are your true friends. Don't turn your back on them. Keep them in your life. Hold close to them. Talk to them. Love them. These are the friends you will grow old with, but you don't find them too often. Don't lose them. Don't leave them. Call them. Reconnect. Apologize. Be honest. Tell them exactly how you feel. Don't grow apart. I've had a few friends like this. I know we will always be apart of each other's lives. Except for one. I'm not sure who's fault it is. But for u to be friends again one of us has to call the other. But i won't. Not yet. First I must decide who this friend is. I must know if they are someone who will stay in my life forever. If they try to talk to me first, well, it'll help me figure things out. But I won't let myself lose the friends that I have right now. The ones who've seen all of me. And are still here. We've been through a lot. I won't lose them like the one i already lost.
I love you all. Thank you for being in my life. I owe you my life. You guys made me who I am and have been there for me through it all. I won't ever leave you